Today was a roller coaster of emotions for me. There were times when joy was overcome with grief. There were times when grief was interrupted by joy. May 16, 2017 . That was the last day, last year, that my dad saw a full 24 hours at home--out and about, sitting on his deck, maybe enjoying the sunset, sitting downstairs with a shitzu on his lap--no doubt, watching John Wayne or maybe the 15,000th viewing of San Andreas, whatever it was that he was doing. On May 17, he would walk into the hospital--the same one I walked into today for what would end up being my very last dilation ever (hopefully)--but he would never leave. He would never go back home. He would never again enjoy his mountains. He would never again sleep in the place he had called home for nearly 25 years. He would park his car, walk inside for blood work, be admitted for elevated liver levels...and that was that. These thoughts would not escape my mind today, no matter how hard I tried. It was emotio